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Last night in San Diego

As I time travel into new thoughts of the San Diego streets. I'm reminded that now is the best time to get what I want. Now is the time I'm reaching towards a future that has a hope and a dream attached to it. I can't see as clear as i would like but that will come in time. all I can do now is look out my small hotel room window into the street where cars drive down the Broadway west 500 block. I can still taste the emerald cafe with that delicious burrito wrap that I had not two hours earlier. I can't help but ponder when sleep will fall on me. I'm motivated by the unnatural. I like to dream about marriage with Shannon. It gives me happiness in my heart. I can't forget the times that she has meant so much to me. I believe that someday, maybe, we will share a home and a life together. Sitting here waiting to see her and kiss her makes me smile like a wish that's been granted. One that's long awaited to come true. Given all that I know, I'm very happy with her life and mine. and I hope through God we will mold a lifestyle together.

Second Day San Diego

After working out and taking a shower Becca droped me off and I got on the blue line into the heart of down town. I feel bad because I inconsiderately left the AC on in her apt and when I woke up it was really cold in the babys room and I felt bad

First day in San Diego

After waking up around nine am to construction next door i got up and went down to to get some fruit for breakfast I went for a swim in the pool. by that time I caught a shuttle back to the airport for a bite to eat. Becca picked me up and we went to get Brayden, her son. Her apartment a mile from the shore and very quant with the California life written all over it!

Airplane

The airplane left at 1145 from the Denver international Airport. It was a quick takeoff compared to the long 5 hour wait for the plane to be defrosted and extra passengers from other canceled flights joined our boaing 757. With all the excitement, or lack there of, at good movie came on about a football player family that adopted a black boy that they trained and tutored to play college ball. Good compelling story. I recently got in touch with Becca Zaynor, a former friend and ex-fiancé of my friend, Jacob mgrain. I hope to find a nice hotel with wifi, a swimming pool, and a large workout room. I can start fresh every morning. Perhaps with a centennial breakfast. I forget which commercial hotels I could get one night stay for free every two nights that I stay. I think its comfort suites .com or something along that line. Maybe Shannon will know. There are two nice ladys sitting next to me. One was upset about the delay and the other had flown a lot for her work and personal life so she knew it would take longer than usual. I wanted to get up during our five hour wait but the captain kept insuring us that the wait would be a few more minutes and so on until 30 minuts, fourty minutes, and so on past. I hope you can cross the boarder of mexico and be able to come back into the US with only your license. I would be able to venture to Mexico the fallowing day and leave my luggage in my hotel room. I also don’t want to have to depend on Becca to be able to head home when I want. I think getting a hotel deal would be my best option now.

Weekend

Sometimes Shannon and I don’t agree on everything but for the most part I really enjoy hanging out with her. I feel bad because I treat her dog bad sometimes. She’s old and I shouldn’t. Next week is going to be a good week. I hope to get a resolution with an endocrinologist and i’ll see where this experience will take me. Me and Shannon didn’t have any sex so i hope to feel better this week. She let me have one of her anti depressants and that made my mood go up. Over all I passed out and slept. Everytime I ate food that’s what happened because my body can’t digest it with my endocrine system malfunctioning.

This next week is going to be fun. I’ll enjoy doing it and find energy in what I am doing- very exciting.

Today

today I decided that all i can really do is keep going. like I told alika that lacrosse is a game where all you do for one hour is neber give up. That's waht life is like, never give up. you only get one and then you mgiht as well just give up and die if your not going to try and get what ever your hearts desire. Now I believe that i'm not achiveing my personal destiny. As soon as I start giving my brain what it wants i think i will start getting what i need. The universe wants me to have exactly what I want. all I need to do is write it down and figure out how to use it. No matter what I will become a wealthy investor and forget about being self employed. I need to learn how to run a company and start taking initiative to get what needs to be done done.
I hope tomorrow I can come up with some solid financial goals.

I need to contact my attorney at law and see what she can provide for me.

I also Need to find an accountant/call an accountant