We are what we repeatedly do; excellence is not an act but a habit.“

Experience is the worst teacher it gives the test before it presents the lesson.”

HOW TO PROPERLY EAT A MEAL

1 Choose small portions
2 take your time (talk)
3 Taste each morsel
4 Drink water!
5 Finish when full
6 Thank the food and the source for nutrients

Growth is optional;
Change is inevitable

The more options you have available to you the more actions you can take

Master vibration!

because 11 is a master vibration you may sense the importance of your destiny as a catalyst for change in the world around you. It is for you to rise to the occasion and do your bit and contribute to the upfiftment of those around you.

Mis-take! aha moment

Appreciation Game
10 things - don’t repeat any one day

Creativity
Need for adventure
Visions
playfulness
Need for knowledge
Patterns of growth
ability to rise to the occasion
Discovery of new things
bring people together in constructive ways
ability to find the catalyst for change in my life and others


courtneys
Open minded
caring
Goals
twisted sense of humor
curiosity of life
Appreciate smaller things ln life
appreciation for people in your life
appreciation for seeing the good in people
Take life as it comes


“and” connects you with the other person “but” seperates you

appreciate, love, understand, value the other person; then state what you need.

Think and grow richer - book napoleon hill

“Let man seek the realization of self, then what ever powers he wants will be his”

the “how” of living your passions is the result of being aligned with the flow of natural law with your higher self

Bowling team a -studied improvements
bowling team b - studies mistakes
        team a had a better improvements

OPA life management - Out come, Purpose, Action. now change your life!

Today I spend time with Shannon and it was wonderful getting to know her. I’m fulfilled and passionate to have her enter my life. I am optimistic this will be a long and loving relationship. Under God we are one.

Remember the self fulfilling prophecy ; )

Goals

Creating the largest media company in the world
Attending the best classes and seminars on personal growth
Spending more time with my creator
Creating renewable energy sources for people around the world
Leading a spiritual revolution

Passions:
Creating the biggest media company in the world
Attending the best classes and seminars on personal growth
Spending more time with my creator
Creating renewable energy sources for people around the world
Discussing the daily outcomes with my advisors and personal assistance

“Born to believe“ book ~ Andrew Newberg and Mark Waldman

Kris’s Dad - Improvise, adapt, overcome

poem

When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
and trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
and look upon myself, and curse my fate,
wishing me lie to one more rich in hope,
featur’d like him, like him with freinds possess’d
ddesireing this man’s art, and that mans scope,
With what I most enjoy contended least:
yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
haply I think on thee, -- and then my state
like to the lark at break of day arising
from sullen earth sings hymns at heaven’s gate
for thy sweet love remember’d such walth brings
that then I scorn to change my state with kings’.

Three steps to change your state, focus, and habits
How to change your debilitating habits

1) Get Leverage:
        What will happen if you don’t change?
        What will happen if you do change?
        Associate pain and Pleasure
        Make your shoulds into musts
2) Change your pattern
        Instantly find something else
        you can focus on. Make it as
        playful and child like as possible
3) Find some empowering new associations        
        purpose + reasons = outcome
        RPM where M is the acronym for Massive action plan or Map
        Through your vision you see the future.

poem

When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
and trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
and look upon myself, and curse my fate,
wishing me lie to one more rich in hope,
featur’d like him, like him with freinds possess’d
ddesireing this man’s art, and that mans scope,
With what I most enjoy contended least:
yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
haply I think on thee, -- and then my state
like to the lark at break of day arising
from sullen earth sings hymns at heaven’s gate
for thy sweet love remember’d such walth brings
that then I scorn to change my state with kings’.

Three steps to change your state, focus, and habits
How to change your debilitating habits

1) Get Leverage:
        What will happen if you don’t change?
        What will happen if you do change?
        Associate pain and Pleasure
        Make your shoulds into musts
2) Change your pattern
        Instantly find something else
        you can focus on. Make it as
        playful and child like as possible
3) Find some empowering new associations        
        purpose + reasons = outcome
        RPM where M is the acronym for Massive action plan or Map
        Through your vision you see the future.

poem

When in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
and trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
and look upon myself, and curse my fate,
wishing me lie to one more rich in hope,
featur’d like him, like him with freinds possess’d
ddesireing this man’s art, and that mans scope,
With what I most enjoy contended least:
yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
haply I think on thee, -- and then my state
like to the lark at break of day arising
from sullen earth sings hymns at heaven’s gate
for thy sweet love remember’d such walth brings
that then I scorn to change my state with kings’.

Three steps to change your state, focus, and habits
How to change your debilitating habits

1) Get Leverage:
        What will happen if you don’t change?
        What will happen if you do change?
        Associate pain and Pleasure
        Make your shoulds into musts
2) Change your pattern
        Instantly find something else
        you can focus on. Make it as
        playful and child like as possible
3) Find some empowering new associations        
        purpose + reasons = outcome
        RPM where M is the acronym for Massive action plan or Map
        Through your vision you see the future.

The best way to predict the future is to create it

Today i saw caroline in astronomy and it was good to hang out with her.

I came home and before I napped I completed the spectroscopy lab.

The best way to predict the future is to create it

Today i saw caroline in astronomy and it was good to hang out with her.

I came home and before I napped I completed the spectroscopy lab.

The best way to predict the future is to create it

Today i saw caroline in astronomy and it was good to hang out with her.

I came home and before I napped I completed the spectroscopy lab.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we’re liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

Vision is when our mind joins need with possibility
Bequeathed
Stimulus and response

He who hesitates is lost - live, love, learn, and leave a legacy.

We are not a product of nature or nurture; we are a product of our own choices.

If you do have a choice then you are responsible for your present situation.

What is not proved, once was only imagined

What ever increases the body

Spiritual Intelligence is superior to other intelligences.

Improvise, adapt and overcome.

The Fruit of silence is prayer. The fruit of prayer is faith; the fit of faith is love; the fruit of love is service; the fit of service is peace. ~Mother terrace~

Common sense is not common practice

Ordained - Fixed of established especially by order of command

Competencies - The quality of being adequately or well qualified physically and intellectually

Tenacious- stubbornly unyielding

Reticence - The trait of being uncommunicative; not volunteering anything more than necessary

Bolstering - Support and strengthen

Bequeathed - Leave or give by will after one’s death

Semantics - The meaning of a word, phrase, sentence, or text

Dichotomy -Being tow fold - a classification into two opposed parts or subclasses

Resolute - Firm in our purpose or belief, Characterized by firmness and determination.

Profound - Showing intellectual penetration or emotional depth

Incantations - A ritual recitation of words or sounds believed to have a magical effect

Tendencies - An attitude of mind especially on that favors one alternative over others

Integrity - (integrated?) - An undivided or unbroken completeness or totality with nothing wanting

“The power of full engagement” - Jim Loehr and Tony Shwartz

“Stress without Distress” - Hans Selyes

Today I met Dan in the mat room of CU rec and he said that he would get information about getting involved with MMA - mixed martial arts.

Most People Major in minor things

3rd phone call interview - on a personal note I need to write up a resume that I think specifies my personal talents and why I would succeed in in a career.

Hung out with courtney and went to silver mine subs which was a bad thing because I over ate. I ate to much and I put to much mayo and challulla and it made it worse when I could of enjoyed just spending time with her and my own body.

Today I met Dan in the mat room of CU rec and he said that he would get information about getting involved with MMA - mixed martial arts.

Most People Major in minor things

3rd phone call interview - on a personal note I need to write up a resume that I think specifies my personal talents and why I would succeed in in a career.

Hung out with courtney and went to silver mine subs which was a bad thing because I over ate. I ate to much and I put to much mayo and challulla and it made it worse when I could of enjoyed just spending time with her and my own body.

Today I met Dan in the mat room of CU rec and he said that he would get information about getting involved with MMA - mixed martial arts.

Most People Major in minor things

3rd phone call interview - on a personal note I need to write up a resume that I think specifies my personal talents and why I would succeed in in a career.

Hung out with courtney and went to silver mine subs which was a bad thing because I over ate. I ate to much and I put to much mayo and challulla and it made it worse when I could of enjoyed just spending time with her and my own body.

Entropy

When your green your growing; when your ripe your rotting

Entropy - The Gradual Decline into Disorder

when you loose the game of hard to get.

This one is for you who I will never forget. To look down at your phone and wonder if you will ever text. To log onto Aim and wait till your screen goes from idle to active and back again. Each night wondering if there is somebody who holds you when your close and misses you when your far. I hope he realizes how lucky it is to have a good girl miss him..... I've fought the urge to text you too many times. Nothing made me look forward to the night more than knowing I will be seeing you. I fought the cold rain and snow just to show up at your door once again. Why you left me without one last date I will understand forever. I hope life is everything you hoped it would be. I hope our paths cross again somewhere down the road because to have my world in focus means knowing your there. When your lonely someday I hope you find me. I hope that we can talk. I hope that you have never changed.

Mexico

So, here we are waiting to go on the best trip of my life with two of my bets friends. It was going to be amazing. However, Cris one of my compadres won't be able to make it on the account of his shipmates taking over the free days and he needs to be on call in order to not be understaffed. That totally sucks. Me and Jake are going to end up going with this girl, Cathrine, and I feel like were just taking her because of her car. Oh, and Jake really likes her. Which is kind of messed up because she didn't want to go because Cris is coming and she didn't want any "drama"? One she can't replace Cris, two I really wanted to see Cris. Three it's just not fair. Maybe it will be fun. I'll just go with it. At least it wont be as much if we drive but on the other hand we wont be going to Mexico. : (

The journey of evolution.

Today I began to listen to the audio book of Ron Hubbard's Dianetics. To list a few similarities of Anthony Robbins teachings to this book, of science for the psyche, both bring attention to the listener that the brain can learn a series of thought processes that can be used to calculate actions in your daily life. Why you do the things you do? If one became a master of his mind. He could command his verbal forces to articulate Ideas as well as his actions in response to better his ability to develop a character of epic proportions. This character would give him a better control over his senses, cognitive thought as well as a look into the unknown of human behavior.

I wish to cover over many other mind and body books to collect information to better my search of complete control over my own ability to live a demanding life. Each book has a curious amount of similarities that I believe link together aiding in a complete lifestyle, but not one of them complete in their search. This is life though; a search for perfection. Is it so far that it is unattainable? I think not. But what is imperfection? Is it the decisions we make? the actions of our mind? I don't believe that perfection is part of the equation. Much like write and wrong, these are definitions that have breathed life into our intellects. They are verbal creations based on our lifestyles much like punishment and revenge. They are the lower brain colliding with our thoughts and feelings that do not make logical computations in the root of our being but claims ground in every day society. Instinct has a play in our feelings and our nature. Perhaps this is the cause of frustration. Man has the power of thought. It has been given a gift of unimaginable power but held back by our instincts of the past. This, if at all, is where our imperfections lye. There are not imperfections but in fact an organism on a journey through the sands of time. Instead of giving way to our predispositions lets take a step back and ask ourselves why were here. Is it to evolve? To live? To love? Is there a reason or were were spun into motion like the earth we stand on? Do we deserve something more? Are we capable of bettering ourselves? Can we rise above the historic brain to give way to a new thought process? One of elaboration, intuition and entrepreneurial innovation. I believe so.

With compassion

So, 4:20 is on the way. I did stay up to greet the day at 12am but after a few brouskies I am retiring. It's been an eventful day with a morning bike ride to noodles fallowed by a dip in Paul's pool. I then went to see my grandparents and my cousin that are from China. It ended with a celebration of 4:20. I hope your day is safe and joyful with many inspiring moments. With love toward the world. Good Night and fare well, until me meet again.

I'm, at the moment, watching the signal and it is an interesting gore/horror film. It matches my day of waking up at 12 and beginning to packing up my room to move. These are my thoughts, or feelings more:

I wake to sleep, and take my walking slow.

I feel my fate in what I cannot fear.

I learn by going where I have to go.

We think by feeling. What is there to know?

I hear my being dance from ear to ear.

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Of those so close behind me, which are you?

God bless the ground! I shall walk softly there,

And learn by going where I have to go.

Light takes the tree; but who can tell us how?

The lonely worm climbs up a winding stair

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

Great Nature has another thing to do

To you and me; so take the lively air;

And, lovely, learn by going where to go.

This shaking keeps me steady. I should know.

What falls away is always. And is near.

I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow.

I learn by going where I have to go.

a good night

So

It's been too long I know. However, its better late right? This blog is about my life. It can't be read by many people that I know. In fact the only person that I gave this address too wouldn't have any interest in reading this. So in retrospect I'm pasting my thoughts into syllables for no one to read on this vast array of electronic space filling up on some super hard drive somewhere in this world. I believe that in any case someone is searching and happens upon this site will have little to no Idea to the character behind the letters. Which I like. I put little to no information about me and the only connection between you (the reader) and me are my thoughts. Does that puzzle you? If you encouraged your desire to leave a comment I would be much obliged for perhaps we will strike up a friendship in the mist of me hem of the inter web. I hope to write again and I hope it to be soon, but I leave you with this

A small minded man weighs what can hinder him. And fearful, he dares not set to work. Difficulties cause the average man to leave off what he's begun. A truly great man does not slacken in carrying out what he has begun although obstacles tower thousand fold until he has succeeded.

and to all a good night

Drunk in Greeley

Kate is awesome. Only because she made me drive to Greeley on this joyous occasion. I was ready for bed but instead I drove too Greeley in order to see my beloved Kate Ferrey. Only because she has a very Color full bed spread, and she feeds me alcohol when I needed it most. The percocet helps when your crippled but not when your drunk. In fact I'm not an alcoholic because I drank with Kate. If didn't , I would be a drunk. However when I was on my way to Greeley I saw a toe truck being toed by a toe truck. It was amazing. I didn't think it could be done but I guess human innovation is exceeding my expectations. Did I mention it was amazing? Kate says: "It's not as easy as it appears to be." because I asked what she wanted to say and she said "You can do it if you believe." I asked her why do you want to go into teaching. Her response was "because she wants to change the world." I think its because the education system is really bad, in my opinion. But Thats another Story. Sweeeeeeeet Dreams! Until next Time.

When Rubber meets the Road

Here is a little bit from a man who says it all. He's talking in his book about how he made is first feature. I do believe this is everything it takes and more.

"When the rubber meets the road like this, most intelligent folks give up. Everyone has a comfort level they don’t want to drop below, myself included. Making a feature film, especially your first one, requires a major life-decision. Are you willing to give up everything for your dream? I mean, really? You could destroy your life and all your important relationships in the process. Are you prepared to fight for your film as if it were the life of your own child? You’ll fight battles you never expected with distasteful people you’ve never met. Believe me, YOU are the one who’ll make all the real sacrifices. Ultimately, you’re all alone. You must feel this passionate desire deep inside and be willing to make the commitment - otherwise I guarantee you’ll fail."

By John G. Thomas

This is a mystifying career choice only the best can overcome.

Presenting - My future career, starting now!

I just put weeds on my Facebook profile because it's one of my favorite shows. Another Favorite is Breaking Bad - about a high school teacher dying of cancer and decides to sell meth to make up for the medical bills, because of his career he knows how and what does he have left to loose? his life? So pretty much those are very high ranked shows in my book and viewers tend to agree with me. There are both very well written and I hope that I will soon fallow in the foot steps of the writers because I too want to become a writer. It is a job that can happen most places and my ideas can be shared with the world. I hope my creative talent will flourish with good karma and please the world. I also like seeing other Ideas come to life. I think I will start my venture to look for scripts. set up pre-production efforts and let it be know that I am a movie maker. Instead of using the school for grades and an education I should Use it for supplying my productions with equipment, labor and means to my methods. To many people go through school for one reason and I should go through for another. I need to get financing and interest from outside but I should also look into selling it through a distributor. I would know the process better and why I have not thought about using my school too making movies anyway is beyond me.

My Creator

I'm not very religious but on the contrary I am very spiritual. I do believe in an all encompassing force. Many people look at him or her as a being or figure but I can't see it as being a single unit. An all surrounding field of life would narrow down the description of a creator. But like that force, I believe, I am driven by the mere fact that I am created in it's image and with that gift I am willed by a deep desire to simulate that force with creations of my own. All of us are in some way or another begining to control our thoughts; our mind begins to formulate concepts and with our will power we put them in motion. We have our desires to create and a drive to propel ourselves into fallowing those dreams. As we grow up we are siphoned into beliefs of our economies, cultures, duties and needs that might lead us astray. Lead us away from evolving. Our own nature to learn our surroundings also holds us back from our true ability to explore and challenge our limits. That is the problem with the civilizations of this world. We regret at the end when it's all over and we look back with all our wisdom and sacrifices of time and energy spent on this earth and we think to ourselves of what we could of accomplished. Wondering if there was any way to get it all back. If to see that from a young minded perspective one could take the challenge on before it was to late. To understand that which is started now will live on to change and become the change you want to see in the world. So, if I can, I will take that challenge and strive to be, in my own way, a creator. A strong mind in charge of destiny at work. Creating a vision, a lifestyle, a belonging to a force deep inside. A Creator in ones self.

Broken

Today, I went skiing. It was a fun filled day with both of my uncles and nothing but powder and snow. The morning had blue skies and every hope of being a splendid occasion. After hitting the trick park I had one last jump to complete. I flew as hard as I could down the steep mountain till I reached the end of the jump where I fell hard on the other side. These jumps are made to keep you safe granted you have enough speed. This was not the case at all. With the amount of velocity I had under my skies the other end of the jump came romping up my legs into my back with a sharp pain. The rest of my body survived except my left foot. I'm unaware how long it will take till I can put some serious weight on it but it doesn't look promising. I've been wheeling around my apartment on an old desk chair with six wheels until i can find another, more convenient, form of transportation. I guess I'll be able to get to my work done with out much agony because I'm not going out to play any time soon.

OK, so now I know why LSD is Illegal. People need to know you are signing on the doted line when you do lysergic acid dithylamide. This is a powerful drug! The effects of this on the brain gives you the ability to attain knowledge that is stored in your head underneath all the cells and electrons. It gives you a view of life that isn't naturally gained through the strains of this mortal world.
The story starts at the base of green mountain in a Porter potty where me and my long term friend took several hits of acid. There was a large amount in each strip that was split among the two of us. It gave us nine hours of grave hallucinations and mind warping views of our current situation. When on acid you cannot perceive danger or harm. Which gave me and him false desires of our limits that could of left us injured or even dead. It was a good thing our adventure started on top of a mountain.
Restlessness is one of the major effects of this drug giving us a desire to retire but our ability to fall a sleep was futile. So, around 4 or 5 in the morning we decided we would be better off at home. Given that it was getting cold and we couldn't sleep. We hiked down the trail to my car and preceded to drive home. This was a horrible idea! Driving a vehicle on hallucinogenics is vividly not recommended. Your world is flipped and danger means nothing. I could of done a lot of damage with out my conscience telling me to pull over and wait it out. The chain of events left us sitting at Wendys for several hours.
Once home we slept till 2pm. After a good meal we enlarged a 2 x 3 foot note pad I kept in my car that we wrote down all many of the wonderful sayings that kept us going through the night. Warning to anyone fallowing in my endeavor, be safe, have someone with you not under the influence, have fun and be cautious and respectful of this mental phenomenon.

Restless from the night spent in Greeley, I have neglected my duties to my work and my body but that should change as soon as the spring break is over. It's important to me to get some of the thing s done that I had promised to get done. Life takes us to important places both in our thoughts and our relationship that often compromises the time we should take for our health and mind.
Just a few minuets ago my wonderful neighbor asked if i would play beer pong with her but i think my plan will be to get some needed sleep so I am fresh in the morning to go skiing.
One of my favorite things to do when I go skiing is to listen to comedy recordings from the Internet on the way up the mountains with my two uncles.