for what it's worth

Today was well worth getting up. me and shannon had a fight but we hopefully worked it out but there may be lingering thoughts about life and we seem to fight about the same stuff al the time. I did have a wonderful time shooting on the set of what seems to be a very promising director. he needs to get the pre production scene down before he shoots so he can be more efficient but I like his style and his character and he has the right attitude for this business. I keep talking to samantha fennel. I sometimes think she was my high school sweet heart that i never got to spend time with. I was the one who called it off with her but not for the reasons of her but because i didn't know what i wanted. I really wish I could take her out on a date but that would be totally against the rules because she knows that I’m dating shannon and she has a lot of pictures on her facebook of her hanging out with kate Quinn so I’m sure she still has a lot in common with will and his family. I sometimes wonder if kate quinn had her baby? tomorrow I start my first day as an adult. I think I wont go back to school. I scared but I believe that anything is possible and it might go against everything that people have told me but i want to re invent my life and prove to myself that success is possible. I need to find peace with what I need to do with my life and I should be able to attain my goals or at least take a good stab at them. I will write down a tado list for the day and then work on my long term goals and how I plan to accomplish them. The steps that I will need and a plan to attract them into my life. these goals include working out money gifts people that i want to influence me and what I plan to accomplish in the years to come. Now is the time. my life has changed. what i do from now on determines where my life will go. be guided to be who ever you want to be. let the universe show you who you really are. meditate discover and determine your own future.